Between You & Me

Tonight we went to this Chinese Restaurant with Pauline, Ashley, Miranda & Emma, it is a really traditional Chinese Restaurant and the food was quite good, we had all never been there, even though its been open forever. Its one of those restaurants that never advertise and you don't really know if its still going or what. But it was good. We went to Cold Rocks afterwards for some icecream (mine was chocolate gelato, with snickers, mars bar and oreos) and I am waaaaaaaay full. I read that during the next 4 week the baby will double in size - the way i've been eating, i wouldn't be surprised if it tripled in size!!!! I'm such a pig. :( i know i kinda have an excuse, i mean, i AM pregnant, but shouldn't that be a reason to eat a lot more healthily and in moderation? i have no self control. especially as Easter just passed and i seriously indulged in chocolate. there are still quite a few left in the fridge too, they just need eating up.

today i went and visited a girl from our church, Emma who just had a little boy 3 weeks ago. He is so tiny and cute. it was great to go and help her, i was able to do some stuff around the house like folding up, vacuum, etc. I know how hard those first few weeks are! she is having feeding problems too, so it takes more of a toll on you. i can remember that time so well, yet it is a big blur in some ways too. a blur of extreme tiredness, confusion, pain with feeding, uncertainness amongst other things. but things are looking up for her and her baby and i hope they keep getting better. keeley went to grandmas (meema's as she calls her) today and they took her to the beach. she tripped over Dad somehow and landed on the bitumen, has a big egg and graze on the side of her head poor thing. :( she's a tough kid though. for not even 2 years old, she sure is amazing. her speech is getting to be so good, she catches onto things you say immediately, just repeats them. she says heaps of words now and puts some together. sooooo cute seeing them learn to talk. :)

so helping Emma today with her little baby boy, it just really hit me that I'm going to (God-willing) have one of those precious bundles in a few months......i really am looking forward to it. even the birth, i feel a lot more confident now. I am having a doula with me at the birth, as well as my hubby, and I think (hopefully) i should feel a lot more in control and able to handle things better. the doula is coming tomorrow actually for some antenatal appointments with Andrew & I. Andrew doesn't think a doula is really necessary for the birth, but he's letting me have one (good guy :) ) as he knows how much it means to me. i can't explain it but i just really desire that this birth experience is different to the last one, that I feel more in control and that I am able to let my body do what its been made to do and birth as naturally as possible. i am actually kinda looking forward to hopefully experiencing birth in a more positive empowered way.

i was just thinking today about my good friend in Canberra...i sent her a snail mail letter a week or 2 ago but haven't heard anything. i hope she got it. we haven't been in touch FOREVER. I miss her. we used to be penpals, but as life gets in the way, you gradually go on different paths and even though the friendship is still there, it is different. not in a bad way, but we don't keep in touch near enough. my fault mainly.

well i gotta get to bed. sweet zzzzzzzz's

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So i found an old blog i had on yahoo....forgot i even had it! there were only 3 posts on there so thought i'd post them here...bearing in mind they are from May/June 2006.

27 May 2006
Well here's my first blog for my website...hmmm, what to say? Well, had church this morning. It went pretty well, we were late as usual and someone had to hand out the newsletters I had printed. Seems we never get there on time...sigh. Oh well, no biggie. Keeley fell asleep on the way home from church, she is soooo cute. I love her so much, I am SO blessed!
Keeley�had a big day yesterday - Ash & Gen were up and we went skiing/wakeboarding. Keeley had her first ride in a boat! She seemed to enjoy it. It was such a nice day and very relaxing. Good to see Ash & Gen & the boys again. We don't see them near enough. We should visit them more, but don't get the time, or when we do, don't seem to have spare cash to take a weekend trip!
Well we've got a Contract on our house, only took a week. We sold it for $182,500 which was ok. We had $189000 on it to start with. I can't wait to move into our new (old) little house (actually, its quite a bit bigger than the one we're in!)...I love old houses and looking forward to doing it up, at least in the colours we want. I'll have to get Kresten to make a window seat for me in the bay window. I love bay windows, so glad we have one.
I'm pretty proud of my little website, its kinda a new project for me, never really created a website before. Its not the best, but it'll do. :)
We have family night tonight, I am sooo tired though. I might have a sleep this arvo so I'm not like a zombie at church.
Well cheerio till next time.

30 May 2006
Well, we went and saw Andrew off at the airport this morning. He had to go to Brissie for work, they are closing the Brisbane office down and he had to go help train some employees who are coming over from Perth or something. Should be home tomorrow night hopefully. I think I'll go stay at mum's tonight...will be good to catch up.
The Building & Pest man came yesterday to do the inspection, apparently there is some moisture damage in the wall near the shower, I really hope and pray the Buyer doesn't pull out because of it. She is quite a fussy lady i think so she very well could. or ask for a price reduction.
We are planning on going to Canowindra in July for open week at Cornerstone...I can't wait! Reegan, Andrew's brother is probably coming for a looksie too. Should be GREAT! I really hope it works out...
I have been reading up about dairy lately and how it really isn't that good for you...found this site - http://chetday.com/ismilkgoodforyou.htm very interesting indeed. I don't have much dairy at all anymore and I reckon I feel heaps better off milk...not sure that I want bubba to have it either but haven't made up my mind.
Went to Crazy Maze cafe yesterday with Alita & cousin Lydia...I think bub enjoyed herself. Lydia was scared of the ball pit, but she came around and started enjoying herself. It was nice to catch up with Alita, we are going to try and do something once a week.
Well betta go do something before we have to go to Mums...

10th June 2006
You are an ISFP!
As an ISFP, you are Intraverted, Sensing, Feeling , Perceiving.This makes your primary focus on Introverted Feeling with Extraverted Sensing.
This is defined as a SP personality, which is part of Carl Jung's Artisans (Sensation Seeking) type, and more specifically the Composers or Artist
Because you are in touch with the inner-artist, you see things heavily in relationship to your feelings and their beauty. You may not be as likely to have a public site, because you feel better sharing with only those who are closest with you.
My Bloginality is ISFP!!!
I did a Bloginality test and it appears I am supposedly the above. It seems fairly right I think...
Its been rain rain raining most of the day, beautiful soaking rain. The carpet in the rumpus room is getting wet though, which is NOT good...
Today we got a quote from a restumping guy to restump our new house. Not too bad, about $4,500 which is okay. He can't do it till middle of July though. I am looking forward to moving in our new house. I'd like to paint it though but Andrew doesn't want me to...thinks its a waste of money seeing we're prob going away next year anyway and won't be living in it.
I was soooooo tired today, had 3 hours sleept his arvo! Andrew watched bubba for me. We had Youth group last night so had a bit of a late night, then Keeley woke up at 1am or something, then 6am...so was up early. She was really tired too tonight, poor thing.
I am getting so excited about going to Canowindra in July...only 3 weeks! It should be awesome. I am looking forward to a bit of a holiday, but not only that, the opportunity to take some time out of our busy life and spend some time growing with God and others. That's why i can't wait for next year either, I really hope and pray it works out to go to Cornerstone. I am looking forward to the opportunity to really grow in my fiath, grow as a family and do something worthwhile with our lives. It will be an adventure! http://www.cornerstone.edu.au/
I've been thinking lately, I wish I was more....i don't know, just more passionate or artistic or something. Its hard to explain. But I know what I mean. I just feel sometimes that I'm too laid back and I wish I knew meanings to amazing words, wish I was politically minded and got riled up about certain things, wish I had stronger convictions...wish I had a way with words. Oh well, guess its just not me.
Not sure how I feel tonight...I'm tired and feel a bit bored or something.
Night


SO there you go.......some of my random thoughts from last year. just thought i'd share.

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Well its been ages since I've written in this blog, like almost 2 years!!! I've never been good at keeping blogs, though I used to keep a written diary when i was little, it has gradually faded out though as I've gotten older. i think its a good idea blogging as i'm more comfy typing than writing, my writing is so messy.

so i fixed my blog so it looks all pretty now, well it looks ok anyway. i didn't have much colour or personality before.

well 2 years has passed......last time i wrote i was 39 weeks pregnant. well i since had a baby girl (4 days after my last blog actually!). Her name is Keeley Elise and she was (is!) so beautiful. She is now 22 months AND we are expecting #2 in August! How exciting. So yes, i'm again blogging when i'm pregnant. seems to be the time to do it.

i think my blogs are fairly boring compared to some of the blogs i see around. i wish i was more of a "free spirited" sort of gal, with a philosophical mind, full of new and wonderful observations about life and things to share. i'm just not really. i would love to be like that but i don't know how. i'm more of an easy-going whatever goes type person, quite logical thinker really but i guess in some ways i am into philosophy. i think i'm a bit stupid to understand it all though. :/ some of the things people come up with, i can't even understand. yet i know my mind works pretty strangely and i'm sure i've got stuff in there noone can understand. just getting it out, that's what i have trouble with.

like i hate writing stuff down, like for assignments etc. if there is a blank space i have to fill in, it scares me to death. well not really, but i get all frustrated cause i can't think of what to say - well i can think of it, but to put it into words on a piece of paper, that's another story.

Andrew & I started doing a C-BTE course on Wednesday nights recently (CBTE stands for Church-Based Theological Education) - its good so far but we really have only been doing sort of an introductory study to the whole course but it'll be good to get into deeper study of God's Word. Well anyway, doing this CBTE course, its made me realise how soft and mushy my mind has gotten since having kids, or maybe its since leaving school, i don't know. it is just not very sharp at all, i feel quite dumb at times to be honest....i guess as we get more into the study it will become easier. well i hope it does anyway. but we are learning if you want to see growth and change in your life you have to be willing to put a little (BIG) effort in, you can't just expect growth to just "happen". You can't just expect God to do it all for you because He requires that we actually do something as well, we have to be willing to grow and change and put in the hard yards to do it. i hope i'm willing, i think i am. i know i want to be willing, i want to grow and change into the person God wants me to be.

more than anything, i wish i was that kind of person now, but i guess it is not something you ever really attain, we will always be growing and changing and there is never a day (until heaven) whereby we can say we have reached our growth level and that's where we're staying. there will always be something to work on. i think God shows you things in your life, you (hopefully) work on them with Him, but then something else will come along that you have to work on changing with His help. Thank goodness we do have His help! We don't have to do it all on our own, we couldn't actually, but we do have Him there to help us. We have to be willing though.

so today was Good Friday. i did thank God this morning for the sacrifice He made by sending Jesus to die, etc. but apart from that, I had a pretty heathen sort of a Good Friday. We don't go to church on Good Friday even though we are Christians. Yet that is the one day of the year a LOT of people go, even if its the only time of the year they do! I haven't really spent any time in God's Word today (apart from reading a few verses in the toilet - well sometimes that's the only time I get to myself!!). I should read some when i get to bed. Which by the way should be soon, i am tired.

i think because i'm tired i've been feeling rather flat and unmotivated all day. this morning i felt okay, i had the music pumping and was cleaning the kitchen and everything, then as the day progressed i got flatter and flatter and felt quite depressed to be honest. maybe it had somethign to do with the chocolate mud cake i ate for morning tea and the lollies and easter eggs i devoured to follow. they say sugar can do that to you. it was Andrew's birthday yesterday, so we had leftover yummy stuff - it had to be eaten. :) but at a price....

i'm quite afraid of becoming really fat with this pregnancy....i'm 22 weeks and already put on 6 kilos or more. if i'm to put on the "ideal" amount of weight, that only leaves around 6 for the rest of the pregnancy and i'm only *just* getting into the middle of the trimester where you put on the MOST weight.......oh no. i don't think i have to worry TOO much though, last time i put on 12 kilos, but lost 24kg with breastfeeding! amazing. hope that happens again....

speaking of breastfeeding, i have been quite worried that things won't go smoothly again this time. i'm trying to be positive though. i guess i have heaps of experience if nothing else. could use lots of prayer that's for sure.

well better get to bed really otherwise i'll pay for it tomorrow.

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